The Start

I have decided to start 2018 with my first blog revealing a little of my own personal journey in discovering my Purpose.

Firstly let me paint a picture that I am sure many would be familiar.

I had always held conceptions of what my career and life would hold, notice I put career before life. I always felt that I would be happy in life if my career all worked to ‘plan’.

I started my career in the ranks of a large organization, got a few promotions but wasn’t satisfied with the pathways they offered. So moved to a higher position in another company and repeated this process again and again.

In fact, when I look at my CV, this is a recurring theme and resulted in more moves than is the norm for my generation. Probably more akin to millennials, who are predicted to move 15-20 in their career. Well, maybe not as much as a millennial.

I felt I was always searching for fulfillment but really couldn’t define what that meant, other than some shallow materialistic goals and grandiose titles.

I had a couple of major career ‘crises’ when my roles ended not necessarily in a manner I would have chosen, which served only to heighten the self-questioning of my path.

Well-meaning friends and self-help books gave that perennial advice ‘follow your passion’….but what was my passion, WHAT WAS MY PASSION!!!!!

So while back in the hunt for another round of that ‘hamster-wheel’ career I came across this poem.

Reading Jan18

Autobiography in Five Short Chapters by Portia Nelson

“There’s a Hole in My Sidewalk”

Chapter One

I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost . . . I am helpless.

It isn’t my fault . . . It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter Two

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend I don’t see it.

I fall in again.

I can’t believe I am in this same place.

But it isn’t my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter Three

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it there.

I still fall . . . it’s a habit . . . but, My eyes are open.

I know where I am.

It is my fault. I get out immediately.

Chapter Four

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

Chapter Five

I walk down another street.

 I recognized the ‘blaming others for my woes’, that I didn’t have the courage at the time to challenge what I then believed to be the right, ‘safe’ path but gradually grew aware that I was repeating the same story over and over. I needed to write a new story! So what I drew from this was not only the futility of repeating the same career ‘hole in the sidewalk’ but on a positive note grew to understand my own unique learning to get to where I am.

It wasn’t an overnight thing but it was at some point that I decided to change the street I walked down.

Don’t sweat the passion stuff. I had always had fleeting relationships with different passions, which is great because that was part of my story and learning. The street I needed to take is taking me to my Purpose.

My Purpose gives me joy in creating exciting partnerships so that both parties can gain from and contribute to each other. The work that so many committed and amazing Purpose driven not-for-profits achieve by contributing to our world’s common good can be an amazing partnership with commercial organizations who understand the benefit of shared-value. I create that connection so each can gain from each other’s strengths and be better for it and jointly create a better world.

Never feel that it is too late to question your path if you keep falling in that hole, you too have your own unique learning that can still be drawn on in your ‘street’.